Rudolf H. Smit tells me that The Self Does Not Die, the excellent study of near-death experiences that he co-authored with Titus Rivas and Anny Dirven, is now available in a Kindle edition. I reviewed the book here.

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A new TV show, The Good Place, presents a quasi-spiritualist view of the afterlife. We are told that a very small, select number of the departed go to a paradisal community of spacious homes, green gardens, and frozen yogurt shops, while the vast majority end up in the terrifying nether regions. The Good Place bears some resemblances to the Summerland of spiritualist tradition – spirits of equal evolutionary development are drawn together, thoughts and feelings directly influence reality, much of the environment apparently consists of thought-forms, and everything is an idealized recreation of earthly life. The show's gimmick is that the main character, Eleanor, doesn't really belong in The Good Place at all, having been a pretty crappy person in her physical incarnation.

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At first, the idea that only a minuscule percentage of humanity gets to enjoy a decent afterlife, while nearly all of us end up in damnation, didn't sit too well with me. Nor does it satisfy Eleanor, who argues – plausibly enough – that since most people are neither saintly nor awful but of medium quality, there ought to be a medium quality afterlife for them. Someplace like Cincinnati, she suggests.

However, even by the third episode, it's becoming clear that the situation is more complicated than it originally appeared. In some respects, the show is a sitcom version of Lost, in which an initially straightforward premise is developed in unpredictable ways. My guess is that The Good Place will not turn out to be quite as good as were told, while the bad place won't be nearly as bad.

Anyway, it's a clever idea with an appealing cast. I think it could use more laugh-out-loud moments, and some of the humor falls flat, but it's worth a look.

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I recently read Laura Hillenbrand's best-selling book Unbroken, the story of World War II POW Louis Zamperini, whose bomber crashed in the Pacific, leaving him adrift on a life raft for over a month before he was captured by the Japanese and subjected to terrible abuse. Though his suffering was undoubtedly real, I suspect that Zamperini's story became considerably embellished over decades of retelling, especially after he rediscovered Christianity in a Billy Graham revival meeting and went on tour describing his experiences to eager crowds. Some of what he talks about just seems a little bit over the top.

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For instance, he claims that the raft was strafed with machine gun fire from a Japanese bomber not once but five times – yet although the raft was peppered with bullets, neither he nor the other two men aboard received a scratch. He recounts epic battles with sharks that went on for hours, as the sharks became ever more crafty and aggressive, carrying out elaborate strategies to pluck the men from the raft. As a prisoner of war, he remembers having once been subjected to punishment in which he was punched in the face more than two hundred times in succession; I'm skeptical that anyone could live through that ordeal, much less recover without disfigurement or brain damage. My guess is that, as terrible as Louis's tribulations were, he felt the need to make his story even more dramatic each time he narrated it.

I mention this only to warn that his claims have to be taken with a grain of salt. That said, he does tell of an interesting experience aboard the raft, when he was so dehydrated and famished as to be on the verge of death. At this time, he says, he began to relive incidents from his life in astonishing detail, even incidents from his very early childhood that he had never previously recalled. One incident in particular involved his interaction with a dog when he was no more than two or three years old; he had never even remembered that dog before, since it had died when he was still a toddler. He witnessed this event from an impartial, third-person perspective, seeing himself as a small child and taking in every detail of his environment. Around the same time, he also had what would conventionally be called a hallucination in which, looking up at the sky, he saw ranks of angels and heard glorious, ethereal music. In general, the whole episode bears the hallmarks of a near-death experience – the life review, the encounter with the divine. Neither the author nor Louis makes this comparison, but it's obvious to anyone familiar with NDE literature.

In another life raft episode, while he and his one remaining companion lay languishing in the doldrums, Louis experienced an overpowering sense of the beauty and wonder of the physical world, which he saw suddenly as the handiwork of divine intelligence. Even the tormenting sharks now struck him as miraculous creatures of astonishing perfection. He felt no pain, hunger, or thirst, no desire to move, no unhappiness, just a complete sense of peace. Later, the memory of this event played a role in his religious conversion at the Billy Graham tent meeting. To me, his epiphany in the doldrums was strongly reminiscent of what Richard Maurice Bucke called an experience of "cosmic consciousness."

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In one of the comments threads, I mentioned that I was reading a book called An Atheist in Heaven, an account of apparent after-death communications on the part of Forrest J Ackerman, a well-known figure in the science fiction community. Some of these ADCs are pretty impressive, and the author, a long time friend of Ackerman named Paul Davids, went to the trouble of having some physical evidence subjected to elaborate scientific analysis. Unfortunately, I don't know if I'm going to finish the book, because the good evidence is outweighed by a mass of trivial coincidences. It appears that Davids decided his best course of action was to include everything – literally everything – that could possibly relate to the ADC phenomena, even down to the most minor and seemingly meaningless events. It's too bad, because there is a core of a very good book in here. This incidental material should have been either omitted or relegated to an addendum.

Still, for those who have a fond memory of Ackerman's magazine Famous Monsters of Filmland, with its endless succession of terrible puns and cheesy horror movie photos, the book should provide a nostalgic smile. Amazingly enough, I even remember reading about an amateur movie contest sponsored by the magazine which the author entered; the title of his movie, Siegfried Saves Metropolis, had somehow stuck in my mind for more than forty years.

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Throughout the first half of 2016, I was under an unusual amount of stress, and when I look back now, I can see how it affected my thinking in unexpected ways. For one thing, my memory recall was way off. I had trouble remembering names, even very familiar ones – the names of classic movie stars, say. A name like Gary Cooper would elude me for hours. I found it difficult to concentrate. More than once I tried to read the Agatha Christie book Funerals Are Fatal, but I bogged down in the first four or five pages, finding it impossible to keep the characters straight as they were introduced. Even writing my own book, I would forget exactly what plot developments had already taken place or even the names of some of my characters!

My problems became so annoying that I tried to diagnose them. I'd read that Lyme disease can cause memory recall issues, and since I had a bull's-eye pattern on one leg that could be consistent with that illness, I decided to be tested for it. But the test came back negative. I wondered if maybe I was getting some kind of early onset dementia or if I was lacking some vital nutrient in my diet.

Eventually, however, the problem eased, and I can now see that stress itself was responsible. In fact, just recently I tried reading Funerals Are Fatal again, and though I still found the opening scene a little too exposition-heavy, I had no difficulty with it.

The episode reminded me of something I read in one of the Seth books by channeler Jane Roberts. I don't remember the exact source, but somewhere Seth says that conscious awareness varies much more from day to day and even from hour to hour than most people realize. To drive the point home, he temporarily adjusts the level of consciousness in Jane's husband, who reports feeling progressively foggier and more confused. This always struck me as an interesting idea. My guess is that we tend to remember the parts of the day when we are most alert, while forgetting other parts of the day when we are in more of a daze. I think it's likely that we spend much more of our daily activities on autopilot than we realize.

In any case, my experience drove home the close connection between mind and body. No, it doesn't follow that mind is reducible to an emergent phenomenon of physical processes, but it does suggest that there is continuing feedback between mental states and physical states, and that what we call "mind" is both more complex and more fragile than we ordinarily assume. 

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  1. Lawrence B Avatar
    Lawrence B

    As the flow of messages on this posting has come to a near halt it may seem less rude to take up space recounting the third saga. I’ll try and break it up for easier reading.
    PART ONE
    1) Background
    In December 2012, beginning with an experiment in dream telepathy, a series of peculiar “psychic” incidents and coincidences happened over the course of several weeks. Included in this was the incident with the cross. Secondly I was already aware of stuff from dreams appearing soon after in real life, but not fully immersed in it as my prime interest.
    2) Balloonacy
    On the night of 30/31 December I had a dream. I was in or below a large balloon above the sea, from which we picked up, via a rope, a man with a beard, ala captain birdseye…the dream mutated till it was just me and a dark skinned former friend descending from this balloon, landing at a spot on the main road behind my house.
    That morning, after the dream, I was walking back from shopping and thinking what the dangling from a rope from a balloon could possibly represent, when I did a double take. Hanging from the side of a house, almost exactly in the location on melwood drive that I landed in the dream, was a 2 or 3 foot bearded santa, dangling from a grasped rope. I had clearly precongized this sight. HOWEVER the next day , 1 January, the cartoon movie UP was on TV…about a man flying in a home suspended from balloons. This too seemed a match to the dream. But if the first incident was hte trigger, how could this be? And vice versa.
    That night I decided to try the telepathy experiment again – to get a particular unwitting person to contact me (the one in the dream in fact)- and so looked up the supposed means of doing so online as I lay in bed. The first set of instructions I found involved visualising yourself holding and letting go one at a time several brightly coloured baloons…
    The clustering of this motif got me wondering if, as in the cross business, it was meant to suggest “someone up there” was trying to get my attention. But who, and why baloons?
    3) Matteo.
    Two and a half years earlier, May 2010, a friend of a few months, Matteo, died. I didn’t know him enough to grieve or know his proper close friends, but enough to attend his funeral. He was only young, dark skinned, had been adopted from Paraguay as a child. At his funeral the image painted was of some kind of minor prodigy of extreme intelligence, but particularly in music. I knew none of this. His sister told embarassing tales about him as a child, including liking to dress up as Mary Poppins. After the service baloons were released into the air and one flew off further and faster than the others. It moved me as representing his soul flying off to heaven and I told mutual friends this later and even mocked up a photoshop cartoon of him, beard and all, as Mary Poppins, flying off holding on to a balloon instead of a brolly. I’d forgotten all this until this moment.
    [ To add to the cluster of coincidences, Mary Poppins was also then broadcast that day on television ]
    When the connection came to me, I realised his name or the thought of him had popped up several times in the preceding days. I went to his still existing Facebook profile. The first thing that caught my eye was a visible section of a facebook “note”, him writing gibberish, presumably stoned. It began “”Ghosts! Imagine. Actual ghosts standing in front of you singing a merry tune! Ghosts! Can you imagine? Ghosts. ”
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  2. Lawrence B Avatar
    Lawrence B

    PART TWO
    4) Josh.
    Soon after this I went to the spirtualist church for the first time, half expecting if this was contact here’s the chance to make it clear…nothing. But over the next few months I kept wondering if it meant anything. Maybe, I decided, it wasn’t about me. Maybe it would be more meaningful for one of his proper friends..perhaps I was supposed to tell one of them?
    It was May and the third anniversary of his death. I went to his facebook again where some of his friends still occassionally posted messages addressed to him. One in particular, who turned out to be his best friend, caught my eye as he posted odd comments saying he’d seen the deceased and wish he knew what he was trying to say….
    So I wrote to this Josh and, without yet volunteeeing my story, asked him if he had perhaps felt Matteo – Matt to his friends – had been trying to get in touch. He replied as follows:
    “Well, the last few months of his life, he was heavily interested in spirituality/ lucid dreaming/ meditation/ life after death… & well, death in general.
    I was very surprised that he left without saying goodbye. He’d often told me he wasn’t going to be alive much longer…but for him to just disappear like that was obviously very upsetting and frustrating.
    So since then, I’ve been continuing with some of the things he’d been researching, to try and find out what he was getting on to. He was obviously highly intelligent, and I don’ see how he could’ve possibly allowed himself to die, without being sure that what he believed would happen once his physical body disappeared, was true.
    So therefore, I’ve been trying to get in touch with him ever since. I feel him, daily. With multiple signs going on, repeated patterns, and just very bizarre things, i can connect with nothing but him. I’m still trying to figure it all out. I feel I’ve not reached the level where I can contact him freely, and understand what he is trying to get across to me/us. But I strive to, and will.”
    The signs Josh kept seeing were nothng to do with balloons, but rather the number 22..the date of Matt’s death..which he claimed to be seeing everywhere.
    I told him my story. He said as he was reading it a woman on TV was holding a big bunch of balloons.
    3 weeks later, 16th June. Josh had a blackout and was taken to hospital. He messaged me. “This was weird…the hospital room I was in was called J22, and there was a big sign infront of me saying “CARDIAC ARREST – 2222″ . And that’s how Matt died.”
    The days either side of this..in fact whenever the subject was discussed..the balloon image kept reappearing around me on TV etc.
    5) Jackson.
    Jackson knew Matteo to the same degree i did but lives in London and hadn’t been to the funeral. He knew nothing in particular about all of the above events.
    22 June – He posted on his facebook a Banksy image showing a little girl reaching out for or letting go of a read heart shaped balloon, and beside it this quote ” ‘They say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing and a second time, a bit later, when somebody says your name for the last time.’ – Banksy”
    I wrote to him to ask what had prompted him to post that image/message. He explained it had become a personal emblem for him as it had been turning up around him for months..he took it as cosmic sign about his own life. It began when he stepped on a keyring of the image on New Year’s Eve…the day I had my dream.
    The title of the painting, incidentally, is “There is always hope”
    When I was in the middle of telling Jackson all that had been going on I interrupted my long message to go to the supermarket, and a girl passed me in the street carrying 2 balloons…
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  3. Lawrence B Avatar
    Lawrence B

    PART THREE – Final part!
    Things dried up except there were minor incidents around the time of his birthday in 2014 and the fourth anniversary of his death. Josh, the little contact I made with him, claimed to persistently have “inexplicible” encounters every day, but he never elaborated.
    6) Getting My Attention.
    May 8th 2015. My mum references “that man” while looking towards the back of the empty living room. I look around. Maybe she just means the photo of my granddad on the table. I bring it over and stand behind her shoulder for her to look at, when I feel the distinct sensation of someone behind ME tugging at the shoulder of my hoodie. I feel slightly creeped out given she’s just possibly referenced an invisible man, but deduce maybe the weight of the hood caused it to spontaneously shift as I leant foreward. I tried but failed to replicate the movement.
    Several days later I’m spooked by a sudden clatter of sound/argument seemingly from my mums room after I’ve left her asleep, tv volume turned down….its gone by the time I go back into the hall. I conclude it must have been in the street, but this being the second incident its getting creepy. I rationalise that on both occassions ghostly themed thoughts had been in my head before things happened, so perhaps I’ve predisposed myself to reading into stuff.
    May 18th 2015. I’d had a dream, coming back in a taxi with a group of people including dark skinned youth, he must have gone home separately first because next thing we’re in the house when he knocks on the door. I remark that he’s the first one to ever come back and invite him in.
    So its now morning and I’m on the hall landing when I feel for the second time the distinct sensation of my hood moving as if being lifted away from my back and upwards. I quickly roll over on the floor to calm down and rationalise this. I realise that this time I definitely was not thinking of the supernatural. The only thing I’d been thinking of was the dream. I then remember the only dead person I know, apart from my dad, and half jokingly ask aloud “Is that you…Matteo?”. The very instant I said his name a tiny red led light on the smoke alarm above my head blinked out. I’d not noticed it on before or since.
    19 May I tell the tale of the recent happenings at home to a friend and , more as an added layer of mystery, throw in the Matteo part, noting its the 5th anniversary of his death sometime in the next few days. To check the exact date I go back through his facebook wall to pinpoint it. Instead I was taken aback to find something which I must surely have noticed 5 years ago but have no recollection of and its eeriness and prescience were extraordinary.
    The last status, the last public words, of the deceased himself a few days before his death were these. ” Matteo ‘is alive, just went missing for a while, will return to the land of the living tomorrow’ “…….
    I then noticed something more. The date of these last words was 5 years to the day that I was reading them. 19 May 2010.
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    I decided – after a year – to get in touch with his friend Josh again and tell him all this. And as I was nearing completion of my tale, the most extraordinary thing of all happened…..
    I had facebook open in two windows. One in which I was composing the letter to Josh. The other from which to copy and paste paragraphs of the recent story already told to other individuals, to save time. I was nearing the end of the account of these “ghostly” goings on and the late Matteo’s eerily timed reference to his “return to the land of the living” when in the other window a new story appeared atop my newsfeed.
    A photo posted by a foreign friend of mine in Belgium. The photo depicted himself, back to camera (in a hooded top btw) looking out over the rooftops at twilight, and in the distant city sky a tiny silhouette of a familiar figure. Above he wrote these words…
    “Believe in your dreams. Never give up! Mary Poppins.”
    The Belgian friend who posted this is called.. Matt.
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  4. Matt Rouge Avatar
    Matt Rouge

    Anthony McCarthy wrote,
    ||I could read that but I don’t think I could get through a who-done-it. ||
    Except for a Michael Prescott thriller!
    (Michael’s books are genuinely entertaining. I’m not just brown-nosing!)

  5. Matt Rouge Avatar
    Matt Rouge

    Lynn,
    Doesn’t sound weird or unbelievable to me. The more we accept that the “unusual” can happen, the more it happens. I think this relaxation of the rules can occur on both an individual and society-wide level. And I do think that, globally, we are moving toward greater acknowledgment of phenomena and thus more frequent occurrence of them.

  6. Matt Rouge Avatar
    Matt Rouge

    Lawrence B,
    Absolutely fascinating. Thank you!

  7. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Ok this is from Sofie Alvim her facebook post on being psychic, with her permission.
    Long read.
    COMING OUT OF THE PSYCHIC CLOSET…
    Most of you who know me well already know this. But for those that don’t, oh well, you will now because I am coming-out of the psychic closet.
    I can sometimes sense things before they happen. I see things for myself and for other people.
    I am clair-voyant, clair-sentient, intuitive, psychic, telepathic and an extremely sensitive empath.
    All of these are different, manifest differently and yet are the same.
    These gifts are nothing new to me. They have been with me my whole life although in the last 3 years especially, the degree and intensity of this seeing has risen to a larger capacity than I could have ever imagined myself.
    I am not special. I am simply connected. Nothing more, nothing less.
    I do not know where this comes from. To my knowledge, other than heal my broken parts, I have done nothing specific to develop this gift or make it stronger or weaker, but I do notice it does keep increasing in accuracy, detail and timing. This is interesting and unsettling to embody at times.
    I also know I am not the only one in my family who has these gifts. There are 3 women who carry these abilities although I am not able to speak on how much or how little this shows up for them.
    The information that is given to me, that I sense and see, I cannot by any means explain logically. It is a download of words, of thoughts, feelings and visions even in the form of a movie in my mind that I see projected onto a wall. I cannot give meaning to what I see or sense until I share it with another until I realize why it has meaning for them.
    The stuff just comes when it comes. Sometimes on demand and other times spontaneously.
    Sometimes nothing comes until there is an interaction with another person. Other times, no interaction is needed and I see things in my mind and sense them in my body.
    When I meet a person, whoever they are…I do not “try” to read them. It just happens whether I like it or not.
    When what I intuit is positive, I feel the vibration of love surrounding my body and more specifically my heart. When what I pick up on is painful, I feel the pain in my body. It is not pleasant or comfortable.
    When a person is not well, I feel it as if it were me and when they are well, it’s like 10,000 watts of love running through me.
    If you are sad, I feel your sadness. If you are angry, boy do I feel that shit. If you are happy, I feel that too! No matter how much I protect myself, take care of myself and my energy and I’ve gotten more skilled at this, it still happens.
    I feel energy at very, very subtle levels. By subtle I mean that the mere inflection of someone’s voice, not the choice of their words, but the inflection, tells me whether they are lying or being truthful. Whether they are scared or confident. When they are speaking from a pattern of behavior or being truly authentic. With the written word the same is true…a person writes me things I know are truths/triumphs/gifts or lies/excuses/avoidances and I feel each different sensation in my body depending on what they are actually sharing. Like when they say “I will ______” I know when they will or won’t, most of the time.
    I can sometimes hear/sense people talking about me in other places where I am not present. If the conversation is positive, I feel love when I see this in my mind. If it is not positive and people are talking behind my back or gossiping, I feel the dis-ease immediately in the pit of my stomach. Again, it’s not comfortable, especially when it is with people you care about.
    I know when someone is thinking of me and I know when I am off their radar. When I get this certain feeling in my body, I just feel it and see the person’s face come into my mind and it feels weird and strange.
    I have had dreams about babies being born to certain women in my life, BEFORE the children were conceived. There have been 5 babies since 1998 that I have dreamt about. With each one I told each woman about the dreams I’d had and one by one each told me when they were then pregnant. I can not explain this and I won’t try to.
    I have had dreams or thoughts about people who I have not heard from in years, like 5+ years…and then the next day I hear from them. The same thing happens with phone calls or texts, and I know many of us have these synchronicities, I am not the only one. But it doesn’t feel like the earth moves or like it’s a big announcement, it just feels like “Oh, there’s so and so, in my mind!” If I had a dollar for many times have I called someone and they tell me, “Hey, I was JUST thinking about you! How did you know?” I’d be rich by now.
    I said to a friend last year, someone I didn’t know very well at the time, “Hey, are you changing jobs? I see something at the end of the year? Are you looking for one?” He says, “not really although he wanted to change jobs at some point” and then a month later I get the email that he has gotten a job in a another state starting beginning of next year. A job that was created for him out of the blue. A job he didn’t look for.
    I know when my friends go for the interview and will get that job or not.
    I know when I am going to run into someone (not anyone specific). I have said out loud dozens of times to the person I’m with, a friend or whoever is with me “Hey, I have a feeling I will run into someone I know today, not sure who, but someone I know…” and there you go, it happens and they look at me like I’m a little crazy. Now, I share it just so they know I felt it before almost as if to prove that I’m not making this up. Because, I still can’t explain this.
    I also know when I’m going to run into “certain specific” people and that still freaks me out, even more. The feeling comes in strong, like a pang in my tummy and then few days or a week later, there they are. I run into them in places that I was not supposed to be in when I see them. I can’t explain this either.
    I have had 2 friends that I’d met, and didn’t really know well at all at the time, both tell me that I knew their marriage was over before they did.
It is not fun to know these things about people/friends I care about when I can sense things are not good for them or will bring them sadness. Having said that, I take this stuff seriously and it is not my place to tell a person when their relationship is over or when they should or shouldn’t continue on with someone. If they ask, I will tell them what I feel as long as I know it will not interfere with their path, because it is not up to me WITH WHOM they learn their lessons or live out their karma. Whether I can feel it’s suited for them or not. It’s in their own life’s design to do what they need to do to learn and become who they are.
    In my own romantic love life this has been the most painful and challenging part of digesting my intuition because what the fuck do you do when you know someone is lying to you? White lies or big lies? When they think you accept what they say as the truth and you know it’s not? This goes beyond a “woman’s intuition”…When you know when they are about to do something that will truly hurt you, sometimes 3 months in advance? When they lie to you, leave, whatever it may be that will surely hurt? Do you jump ship or do you wait until you know more? What did I do in these cases? I stayed until it was time to go, because if I lived life according to every premonition, I would never experience half the stuff that my soul desired that was in my highest good. I never abandoned myself in the process and still hard.
    I truly used to think that the things I saw with the guys/men I was involved with made me a paranoid freak and even some friends at the time thought I was. Because surely I what I saw couldn’t be right. And I will not share with you half the stuff that I’ve seen because there’s no need to. I’d rather be wrong than sad. I can tell you with great sadness that every single thing I’ve seen in the last 3 years/ had premonitions about (that I of course thought it was nonsense) in this romantic arena of my life, I had proof later on that it was true. ALL. OF. IT. I will repeat that this is not fun, at all. And having to balance and still choosing to show up as myself and be vulnerable until what I “see” becomes revealed is how I have to live, to be in the moment. And I still get hurt, and have benefited from the experiences I’ve had although painful.
    Another sad thing is when I sense this is the last time I’m about to see someone who is ill and going to pass on. I don’t know when they are going to die, but rather I feel this is the last time I will see them. This has happened twice and it is h e a r t-b r e a k i n g.
    And lastly, when I could sense the dog was ill a good 6 months before I took her to get checked. I told the vet tech I had a bad feeling and she told the vet she thought it was weird I knew without having the results yet. I just knew. Still…h e a r t-b r e a k i n g.
    After all of this, and more, after all of the proof and synchronicity and the many, many “I-can’t-believe-it” moments, I STILL have a hard time trusting the higher power sometimes. I am indeed a spiritual being having a human experience and with being human comes fear and doubt and worry.
    I have had many awakenings in my life however in the last 2-3 years, I was literally brought to my knees to face my darkest moments and I had no choice but to learn to surrender my self, to trust and to give into this Divine force. I have had to cultivate a stronger relationship with the Divine and this in turn has made me more connected than ever because there was nothing left but this force. In the many moments I have of lack of faith/trust/belief, I am led once again to the powerful force that governs my life because there is nothing else TO DO except BE.
    Being psychic is not easy nor did I choose it. I have however learned to accept that this is who I am. I have been reluctant to share myself openly in this way for many years because of fear of how people could misinterpret or label me. I am no longer willing to hide ANY part of myself. You don’t have to believe my truth, I do. I have done all I can to completely liberate myself emotionally, mentally, sexually and spiritually from being who I was meant to be. That work is done and am I whole now within myself. In the near future I will share more about this journey of liberation, but for now…this is the last part of stepping into my truth.
    I have been told over and over and over by guides, other readers, friends, clients, etc. to be more authentic in my work and for the fear of judgment, I have held myself back. I am not going to hide anymore. I am proud of who I am. If this makes anyone uncomfortable in any way then I trust they know how to take care of themselves in whatever way makes sense for them and I honor that.
    This is the time to share this openly now that I have started offer these readings publicly.
    Yesterday I gave someone a reading and the messages that came through me is something that can help at least 10+ children. 10 children! And even if it’s just one person, it’s always worth it. So after years of wrestling with whether to offer this or not, I have come to peace with the fact that there is good that can come from this. If I can help someone get into alignment with their path by whatever my own wisdom and Source/Goddess/Divine/Universe/Spirit wants to share with them, then so be it.
    The person I read for had this to say: “I had a session with The Goddess this morning and I was blown away by the accuracy and timing of her revelations! I had not told her anything prior to the reading and Sofia was not aware of the events that had occurred leading up to the session. The Goddess imparted valuable advice in helping me go in the right direction so I can fulfill my life path. The truth was delivered in a loving and compassionate manner and I highly recommend a reading with the Goddess if you are feeling stuck or unsure of which direction to turn.”
    Whatever comes through me, I’ve heard is helpful for many of you. Why? Because what wants to be said through me is a catalyst for people to know they are on the right track or not. It is not me who decides the right and the wrong track. It is up to the person I am reading for to decide this as what I say lands in their body, mind and heart. I provide the messages, you do the work and the living.
    While I do not aim to be a fortune teller or predict the future, I am still surprised after all these years at what comes out of my mouth when I engage in this information that comes from the Divine Goddess of Life. I do not understand how what I see to be in such alignment and there is no way I could have known what I see/sense or speak.
    Despite all that, this keeps me humble. I don’t take it for granted. I am open to all that the Universe wants of me, this is one of them.
    A guy once said to me, “You know everything”. No. No, I don’t. I don’t know everything and I don’t want to. I know “some” things, I know “enough” things.
    I still can’t explain any of this. I have stopped trying to explain it. There is no need to understand it anymore. It just is.
    Why I am sharing this? I am not the only one. There are many others. I am simply sharing my part and my story.
    You are intuitive and psychic too.
You have the ability to connect as much or little as you want.
    What you may see or know might feel uncomfortable for you and I can completely empathize with that because it is not wrong/right or good/bad, it just IS. We are all psychic and telepathically communicating all the time. Perhaps you might recognize that you know more than you think you do. Perhaps you might begin to trust your inner voices and knowings more if any of the examples I gave seem familiar to you. Perhaps no voices or knowings are needed and you just choose and DECIDE to trust yourself no matter what…
    I am not special. I am simply connected. Nothing more, nothing less.
    And now… the only thing for me to do is for me to BE.
    In deep authentic love and truth,
    Thought people might want to read how a psychic operates and sees herself. Cheers.

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    Lynn

    Wow. I tried to send this so many times, it kept just trying to send. Having computer problems and am about to buy a new one. Hope you enjoy reading it. Lyn x.

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    chel

    On the topic of TV, I found your post about the show Catastrophe, and here is a relevant post which I think you’d identify with: https://bethanyactually.tumblr.com/post/124245092794/mikailborg-athelind-swanjolras-like-tbh-i
    “there’s this idea in our culture that cynicism is realistic? that only children believe in happy endings, that people are ultimately selfish and greedy and seeing with clear eyes means seeing the world as an awful place
    that idealism is– easy, i guess. butterflies and sunshine and love are easy things to have in your head.
    but i’ve known since i was fifteen that idealism– faith in humanity– optimism– is the most difficult thing in the entire world.”

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    Shaun

    Just a little notification: Gerry Woerlee has reviewed the english version of the self does not die.

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